I believe that good things will/should happen to me and those I love because we are good people and we deserve it.
But we are really no better than anyone else.
So countless people who are suffering at this very moment deserve so so much better. Really, none of us deserve the pain, the fear, the lack.
So I cannot believe anymore that good things will happen to me and those I love because we deserve it.
I feel so lost and afraid and powerless without this belief.